Fear

I'm scared of losing you. I'm scared of all the time that I could of spent with you. All the time that I wasted doing pointless things that I don't even remember. We're not even that close and that makes me so sad. I should put in more effort to really get to know you, because you're just so important to me and the thought of losing you is unbearable. I don't want to believe that one day when I wake up, you'll be gone and the comfort of knowing that you're there will only be a distant memory. All those things that I could have done, could have said. I just want you to see me grow up, to be there everytime I go and visit you. To hold my hand and comment on how much I've grown. To give me advice on how to live my life because you just want to spend some time with me. To tell me to turn down the volume on the tv. To read me the newspaper. I'm going to miss you so much and I don't want you to ever leave me. You've been with me all through my childhood years and I don't want to rely on photographs just to see your face, your smile.
I love you so much, don't ever abandon me please.