Bitch, plz

• Exams started today
• I had my TOK and music exam, they were alright. 
• English exam tomorrow, I'm so screwed. I was doing this practice analysis and I thought that the poem was about a volcano when it was actually about the insignificance of human existence compared to the existence of the personified mountain. lol. 
• I've been eating so much. 
• Debating about whether or not I should go to this 18th next weekend.
• I feel guilty for going because I have so much going on, but I really want to go.
• Fuck me. 
• So screwed for the 4 hour maths exam
• So screwed for chemistry
• So screwed for economics
• So screwed for German
• I haven't exercised since Saturday. 
• I can't wait until Friday, my day off, whoooo!!!
• Supper was so unnecessary.
• I can't wait until the holidays.
• I really wish that June would just fly by.
• The Frenchies came on Sunday, they speak rapid French to each other, it's so cool.
• I wish I learned French instead of German. 
• Ich hasse Deustch.
• Ich will nach Hause gehen. Ich will nicht in die Schule bleiben. 
• I just want to go to country road and buy everything, I never knew that they had all these cool jumpers there. 
• I'm craving the cheesecake that I had with Valli on Saturday. 

Some casual afternoon poetry

I Go Back to May 1937 (from The Gold Cell)

I see them standing at the formal gates of their colleges,
I see my father strolling out
under the ochre sandstone arch, the
red tiles glinting like bent
plates of blood behind his head, I
see my mother with a few light books at her hip
standing at the pillar made of tiny bricks with the
wrought-iron gate still open behind her, its
sword-tips black in the May air,
they are about to graduate, they are about to get married,
they are kids, they are dumb, all they know is they are
innocent, they would never hurt anybody.
I want to go up to them and say Stop,
don't do it--she's the wrong woman,
he's the wrong man, you are going to do things
you cannot imagine you would ever do,
you are going to do bad things to children,
you are going to suffer in ways you never heard of,
you are going to want to die. I want to go
up to them there in the late May sunlight and say it,
her hungry pretty blank face turning to me,
her pitiful beautiful untouched body,
his arrogant handsome blind face turning to me,
his pitiful beautiful untouched body,
but I don't do it. I want to live. I
take them up like the male and female
paper dolls and bang them together
at the hips like chips of flint as if to
strike sparks from them, I say
Do what you are going to do, and I will tell about it.

Omg

Dying of stress.

So I deleted facey from my phone

So I can concentrate on everything else. It's not really working though, I wish I didn't have internet on my phone.

Things I need to do after all my exams:

• GO SHOPPING!!!
• go on a diet 
• Exercise more
• Buy new things for boarding school
• Have a sad movie marathon by myself with Ben and Jerry's and Lindt macaroons 
• Catch up with people I don't see on a day to day basis
• Catch up with people I see everyday
• Study and keep up to date with homework
• Invite Valli over to go for a long run. Then make gourmet food and eat until we can't consume anything any more. 
• Go to the cinemas 
• Have brunch with Meggy at Auction Rooms. Cause we R indiezzz
• Maybe see Doris if I can be bothered.
• lol jks lub u beb
• Hang out with mum
• update the music on my phone. I haven't done this since last year. Pathetic, I know.
• Join a class at the gym/ maybe yoga as well?
• I will keep updating, but I have to get to class. xoxox

I'm not going to let myself go just because of this.

Why does life have so many ups and downs? Fucken hell.

I miss you too

Because we r soulsistaz

Best run today!

I went for a 8-9 km run at Queenscliff and it was so amazing. The view of the lake and the scenery really just determines how well you will be running. Love running so much :)

I'm such a chiller

- we won debating last night!!!!
- and I spoke for 5:35 mins and I improvised some of my speech on the spot. Yay
- I just had my German oral and it was not that bad.
- I really want to go home tonight and just miss cross-country.
- parent teacher interviews are tonight.
- some of the girls in my house are so bitchy.
- I didn't practice piano yesterday.
- just hatin' on lyf.

I lol'd.

You're really, really, really, sad.

Why would you even say that? I feel for you, for you and your sad life.

Oedipus the King

It's one of the three Theban Plays and it's so messed up. Oedipus kills his own father and then marries his mother and has 3 kids with her. When the truth is discovered, his mother/wife hangs herself and he uses her dressing pins to poke out his eyes. Lawlz. Even though it's disgusting and fucked, I still love the play. I actually love reading about Greek Gods and the dramas that were written during ancient Greek times.If I were doing VCE, I would totally do classics because its just so interesting. Fucken IB, neck myself.

Motivation.

• Write my TOK essay
• Do my Chem test
• Finish my work requirements for maths 
• Do my maths test
• Finish my German reading and writing tasks
• Finish my Eco portfolio
• Write up music proposal for Hungarian Folk music
• Do my theory homework
• Memorise general knowledge for Barber and Beethoven
• Finish answering Sophocles questions 2 and probably 3
• Chem homework, whatever that is 
• Play 100000 hours of piano
• Practice violin
• Do my washing for the week 

I think I'm getting sick.

I have a fucken maths test tomorrow and I've finished zero work requirements. I'm so screwed, but since I think that I am developing a cold, I'll just miss it on Friday. I'll probably tell Viv that I'm feeling sick and just stay in bed until period 3. But that means that I will have to miss my German oral as well :( okay, I'm going to go to period 1, German, and then come back in period 2 and tell Viv that I'm feeling sick. Sounds good. I've also missed my Chem test, which I still haven't done, which is so frustrating because I just want to get it out of the way. I hate school.

So sad that I have no time to watch Vampy D :(

Hey hey hey.

I have to wake up at 6:35 am tomorrow morning for some stupid run in Heidelberg. Wtf is wrong with me. Why am I doing this to myself?