Mixed feelings

Just read the most depressing book. It makes me reflect back to year 8 when I went through a very stupid phase. I guess very one experiences something like it once in a while and you can never really not feel that way. But I guess that it all depends on the way you cope with it. I didn't handle those feelings very well back then, and I still don't now. I feel guilty and ashamed all the time and sometimes, I feel like repeating those actions but I always stop myself before I do. It's not like a have a problem but I guess it will always stay with me. I want to be confident but I'm not, and the addictive nature of it will never go away.